b-kunwar

It is the star in a clear sky that twinkles with a pulse.
It is exploration and investigation driven by curiosity.
It is the outcome of choices made by the chooser.
It is the observation of the world revolving around you.

It is not to be wasted grieving or suffering.
It is not to lie, steal or make others suffer.
It is not to shut your eyes to reason.
It is not to look for its meaning but to define it.

It is to live and to let others live.
It is to learn, laugh and love.
It is to be virtuous, reasonable and truthful.
It is to welcome death at the end of it all.

Time, the river.
Time, the birds flying.
Time, the Sun above.
Time, the heart beating.

Time, it takes...
To walk to the woods.
Yet sometimes,
Time just won't move.

Time, the old trees.
Time, the wind blowing.
Time, the snowy mountains.
Time, the stars twinkling.

Time, the song escaping,
Through the tiny gap.
Filling our hearts with
Both joy and tears.

Been spending a lot of time alone lately...
Thoughts fluttering like butterflies inside my head...
Can't stop asking questions...
Can't sleep...
Can't stay still...
Cant make sense of the world....

A thought...
What is knowledge?
What purpose does it serve...
When we are destined to end...
Is soul eternal?
Is life driven by god?
Not the god, the ill-conceived deity...
God, the energy...

World full of idealists...
Is it necessary?
Animal instincts...
Is that bad?
What is good? What is bad?
What is sweet? What is bitter?
What is positive? What is negative?

Is it possible its just a transition?
Is life just a phase?
To make us realize the value of eternal peace...
Is it worth living?

Is the universe conscious?
What is the true picture of the universe?
What is the absolute truth?
Is everything just a relative truth?

Real emotions?
Ideal emotion.
Happiness.
Isn't sadness just as satisfying?
Isn't vengeance just as satisfying?
Oh... please tell me.

At the point of breaking...
Appearance of cracks...
Dark abyss.
Forever sucking in.

Sleep.

Head says -
"The clock is ticking.
You are still not ready.
No, you just wont co-operate.
You have your own needs.

Why won't you just concede?
Why don't you realize?
Just how important this is...
For us to climb the ladder."

Body replies-
"Chill, okay.. just relax.
I'm not here for eternity.
Neither are you...
Just when will you comprehend?

Our consciousness is mutual.
Your's just aware as mine.
Help your inner eyes from...
Looking any further in."

The soul observes.
Making little sense...
Out of the dialogue
Now taking place.

Head weeps-
"Not very long now...
Just a few more days.
I must get this done...
Then we can go out to play.

Just think for this once..
Because there is so much left.
And needless to say...
You are nothing without me."

Body confides-
"Time and tide is momentary...
In the grandeur of the universe.
No matter how much you do...
There'll be so much more.

Give up any hopes...
Surrender all your dreams.
Spend you time with nature
For the chance doesn't repeat. "

Head retreats in defeat.
The body goes to sleep.
The soul slowly slips...
To take a giant leap.

One thing is for sure... I'm a retard.
How did I let myself get blinded by anger.
The frustration, the pressure... why didn't I just smile them away.
How could I let myself fall into a pit?
A pit so shallow, coming out takes shorter than it takes to fall into it.
Why did I take so long to come out?

Life is indeed a mystery.
It lets us feel. Sometimes, it  hurts.
It lets us see all the weird and wonderful things.
It gives us clues as to where to look next.
It has cryptic messages embedded into its fabrics.
But it is there to live.

Why let ourselves be bounded
By plastic moral judgments
Why fall for the so called ideal guidelines...
This life is a test....
There is no wrong or right.
That would be the ultimate freedom.